Candidate Journals

I don’t know what’s going on with me. Last week I had acid reflux and this week I have a sore throat stuffy nose and a fever. Not fun especially with the black belt cycle. It’s so annoying how it happens just when the cycle is ending. I skipped my first 2 blocks of school today because my mom wanted to test me for covid, I don’t have it luckily. I went to my last 2 blocks of school and when I came back I had some food and rested a little before starting my requirements. I did some in the morning so I wouldn’t have to work as hard. I went on a normal run and it was pretty okay. I went to my class today too though I skipped it yesterday because I was feeling a lot worse yesterday. Class was fine today and I got caught up on...

Today was my rest day. I woke up pretty late and made some food for myself. I was with my dog for some time and then I did some homework. My dad went to Raleigh yesterday to help my sister with something in college. He came back today. I had lunch with him and then was watching TV for some time. My grandma came to visit for the past week while my aunt and uncle were on vacation and needed someone to take care of her. It was also a good time for her to visit too. They came back today so they stopped by and I said hello and then they left. Me and my parents were watching this funny crime movie then I had dinner and showered. Pretty chill day.

Today I had black belt class. Master Evins wasn’t here but it was still a pretty good class. I got a lot of practice on my bo cho and specials. I went to my piano class after. I’m working on this piece for my dad’s birthday that’s coming up soon. I had breakfast when I came back and I was just chilling with my dog for some time and got started on the rest of my requirements in the late afternoon. My mom started

Today I slept through my alarm again. It was a pretty normal day at school. I went to the meeting/tryouts for the odyssey of the mind club that I do in a different school after school and it was pretty nice. There were a lot of people I knew so that was good. I came home and started my requirements. I got a little late start than usual but it was fine. I went on a run more later than usual and I surprisingly really enjoyed my run today. I didn’t feel like too tired and it felt nice. But unfortunately I got a really slow time which makes me kind of upset. But it was fine because I had a good time. I rested after and my mom made a really good dinner and then I had a shower and now I have to do homework.

I woke up today and felt so much better! My stomach aches weren’t there anymore and I didn’t feel that gassy anymore. Today was a pretty normal school day. We have some cool concert music for band. I have so much homework from my AP world class though, we have to take an immense amount of notes. I chilled for a little while once i got home and then started on my requirements. Thursdays are pretty laid back because I have no after school classes. I was hanging with my dog for some time and then went on my run today. I pushed myself and I feel proud. I do this club called Odyssey of the mind and I want to do it in high school but my school doesn’t have it but one of my friends told me about another school holding try outs tomorrow so I’ll be checking that...

I’m still not really feeling well but I couldn’t miss more school so I went. I got early dismissal anyways because I had a doctor’s appointment. They said I just have acid reflux. I rested and tried to eat a little before doing my requirements. My parents keep saying I shouldn’t do so much because of how nauseous and in pain I’ve been feeling but it come and goes and I don’t have enough time to make up missing days. I went on a small run and then had sparring and black belt class. Wednesdays are usually pretty tiring. I did okay in sparring today not that proud of myself. I hate how I have bad days and good days because testing is coming close and I can’t just hope it’s a good day that day. I have no idea how I’ll do the 2 v 1 too. I felt really...

I’ve been sick these past couple of days. I didn’t go to school on Monday because I threw up 7 times throughout the night before. Not fun…But I’m feeling kind of better. I had a teacher workday today so no school fortunately. I haven’t gone on my run the past 2 days but did everything else. I didn’t want to push myself too much. I mostly chilled today. I didn’t want to procrastinate on my essays but here I am. I still haven’t finished the book but am almost halfway. I started my diet 2 weeks ago too. Working on my role model and my hero essays for now. Also have been studying for the written test. Had a pretty normal class today. I’m still having trouble fully digesting food but not that big of a deal. Only 4 more weeks left!!

Today was my rest day! I had to get up early to go to a meeting for an organization I’m part of. I carpooled with a family friend and we had to go to a housewarming function right after so that’s where we went. My mom and sister came there too later on. We were there for some time and we had lunch there. After I finally went home after a long morning. I was chilling mostly, took a shower, played with my dog, ate and did some homework. Thats been my day.

Today I had black belt class in the morning and it was just normal then I did some of my requirements at home before going to my piano class. I got a little annoyed because my jump rope got really tangled. I had a good piano class and then my dad took me to my school to run at the track but there was a game so I ran on the field instead. I came home played with my dog, finished my requirements and was talking to my grandma for some time. Then I ate and I was pretty much chilling the rest of the day. I was supposed to go to this wedding reception this evening but my sister wanted to stay home and I wouldn’t know anyone there so I stayed home too. We watched these 2 really good movies. That was it.

Today was pretty normal day at school, not too much work yet. Usually I rest little after school before starting my requirements but today my dance class was early so I had to finish everything fast. Everything was going okay but my run was just my breaking point. I’ve been so tired lately because I just do my requirements after school and then have tae kwon do classes till 8:30 or 9. So I barely get a good break. Anyways I went to my dance class for 1 and a half hours and then calm home, practiced piano, ate and was chilling. I started studying for the written test. The actual tae kwon do part is fun but doing all these other physical requirements is what I don’t like. Just 4 more weeks!

Today I missed my first period of school today because i wasn’t feeling well in the morning. It was a normal day of school. My grandma has come to visit and she’s staying with us for around a week. I was chatting with her for some time then I did my requirements, ate and had a meeting for an organization I’m in. It was a pretty okay day.

Today was a pretty average day at school. It’s starting to really feel like school now but I still haven’t made any new friends. After school, I watched a little TV and then did my requirements. My runs are going fine but I’m getting bored of the routes I’m going on. I’ve tried everyone one I can do within a mile or so radius of my house and I’m getting bored of them. I guess I’ll just have to deal with it for these last weeks. I had sparring today and I feel pretty good about how I did especially since I was nervous about my sparring skills. I did a head kick which they said was allowed but I felt bad because my opponent said good kick and I didn’t say anything. The most annoying thing is I can’t talk with my mouthguard in so while my opponents say stuff...

Today I had school, and the work is actually starting this week and I have to start focusing to balance the rest of my cycle work with schoolwork. After school, I had some snacks and was chilling for a bit before I started my requirements. I did 1.7 miles today and got average time, didn’t improve that much but didn’t do bad. I was facetiming my sister for a while and then had taekwondo classes. I helped out in the junior one and worked on blue belt self defense with some kids and then did the senior class. Just a normal class but after class I was working with my mentor and my mentee and my mentor had to help my mentee and watch her because she needed work from her testing last week. I was helping out with that and worked a little on my hurricane back. We worked on them last Saturday and I realized I was doing it wrong so now it’s a little easier but it still needs work. The cycle is slowly getting closer to the end but I just don’t feel confident, especially with sparrin

Today I slept in and after having lunch I was just chilling and playing with my dog and then I went to the vet with my dog and dad because my dog has to bloodshot red spot his elbow. They said it’s some skin thing and we should put a cone on him so he doesn’t lick it. After we came home and were taking care of my dog and then me my sister and my dad went to a burger place. We had a nice time. I came home said bye to my sister because she was going back to college and finished my requirements. I didn’t get to do my run today because it was too late. That was my day.

Today was my rest day! My sister’s friend stayed over last night and we watched a movie till late. I’m pretty close with her too so it’s cool. We made breakfast together and were listening to songs for some time. Then we were watching some random TV while my dad made lunch. I ended up watching Avatar the last airbender episodes. It’s one of my favorite shows. I was just lazing around for some time and then I went to clean my bunk bed cupboards out because I’m getting a new bed. I listened to some murder stories while I did that. Then I made some meal prep food, Pad Thai, and it turned out really good. I showered and am chilling now.

Today I had black belt class in the morning. It was a pretty normal class today and then I had piano class. Definitely need work on my hurricane back kicks though. After I came home hanged with my dog, made a dessert thing and did some chores. Then I finished the rest of my requirements. I went a short run today and then did a little more chores. Some of my dads friends came over and my sisters friend (one of their daughters) came over too. Since I started my diet, I wanna try a little meal prep so we went to the grocery store for that. I am about to have dinner and watch a movie with my sister and her friend. Tomorrows my rest day!!!

Today I slept through my alarm so I had to rush to get ready. I won a raffle for a snack in my class during school so that was fun. After school I was watching some TV for some time and tried to get a small nap in before I started my requirements. I finished my requirements around evening and went on my run. Today my run felt horrible I was feeling like the beginning of the cycle. I think I’m just worn out. Anyways my sister came over this long weekend to visit from college. We watched an old murder movie together and our dad made us dinner. Pretty okay day.

Today after school, my mom gave me a full meal to eat because she said I haven’t been eating properly. She was leaving to go to Vegas on a trip with her friends today. I said bye to her and was watching some TV for some time and took a short nap that felt really good. I finished my requirements after. I improved on running time today and was facetiming with my sister after. She’s in college but she’s coming over this long weekend. I had an online meeting for an organization I’m part of so I did that and had dinner.

Today was an okay day at school. We had a fire drill today but the alarm kept malfunctioning and went off 4 times off and on so that was annoying. It was a pretty chill day, didn’t do much since it’s only the 3rd day of school. Afterschool there was an interest meeting for a club I want to join, Deca. So I attended that with some of my friends. After I came home, I had a snack and watched a little TV and then started my requirements. Sparring and BB class was cancelled today so I had more time but had to do more work because I had to do my poomsae, self defense and kicks at home. Today I felt a lot more exhausted than usual and my run wasn’t really hard but I got a slower time so I guess I was just going slow without realizing. I...

I went to school in the morning. Nothing much happened today, I went to band and my adobe class for the first time and had an assembly today. I also started my diet and am just doing a simple diet of high protein, less sugar and fried food, basically no junk food. I almost missed my bus in the afternoon because I got lost. Once I got home I had a snack and then started my requirements. I went on a new route for my run and got a little lost but I figured it out. I went to my taekwondo class after and it was pretty fun. I finally caught up on my mentee sessions and learned bo cho specials. I just had dinner and am gonna go study now.

Today was my first day of high school. It wasn’t that bad but I need to figure out how to make friends all over again. I’m kind of scared to start doing work especially with the cycle I need to be better with time management but it is easier since school lets out at 2:15 instead of me getting home at 5:30. After school I had a snack and started my physical requirements. I went to taekwondo class after, helped out in one class, attended the next, the usual. Pretty light stuff today. I decided to skip my run today because it was getting pretty dark and I just wasn’t feeling it today because my rest day wasn’t really a rest day because I was out the whole day. I’m gonna try to get my run in before taekwondo class tomorrow, sometime in the afternoon. I’m gonna study a little of...

Today was my rest day! I slept in and had some leftovers for brunch. I started packing my school bag because my first day of school is tomorrow. Later I got ready to go to my friend’s birthday party. She is my childhood friend since I was a baby and these twins were also our friends like that, so it was just us. We were first at her house and then her mom took us all to birkdale. We didn’t really know what to do most of the time and just looked at stores and then left. We got dinner at a pizza place and we made funny jokes there so that was fun. It was till evening and then I came home and had a nice long shower and picked out my outfit and everything. I am pretty nervous for tomorrow since it’s my first day of high school. Mostly...

This morning I had black belt class. We worked on hopkito, choreyo and bo cho self defense. I’ve been getting better at hopkito. Afterwards, I finished off the physical requirements before my piano class at 10:30. I want to learn a new piece for my dad’s birthday. He loves me playing piano. I’ve been missing a lot of piano classes lately, so I’ve been missing it. Then I came back and finished my run. I ate and had a quick shower becuase I had to get dressed for my dance recital. I do Indian classical dance, bharatanatyam, and the costume, hair and everything is complex. My mom got me ready pretty quickly though. I spent basically the rest of my day at the recital place because I was preforming 2 dances and I had to do a costume change and then wait for a long time because there are 2 genres/sections...

I started my requirements around noon. After that I had lunch and then I went on my run and then I had to get ready to go to my open house for school. The school is big! I went out for dinner with my family. We took our dog too. 

I wanted to get up early, but I couldn’t drag myself out of bed. Have no idea what I’ll do when school starts. I finished my requirements around noon and then watched some TV. Then I went on my run with my dog. I got a little bit slower time and didn’t run as much as I usually do but I had to stop multiple times and went slower because of my dog since I was holding his leash. When I came home my dog threw up on the carpet so that was frustrating but he isn’t sick, it was just because the run made him nauseous I guess. I headed to sparring and black belt class a little later. Sparring was a little shorter today because we started late but black belt class was pretty fun. I got to work on hopkito and my stick form. Just had dinner and need to go shower.

Today I woke up a little early and finished my run. I got a much better time today so that made me happy! After I was chilling and then I ate brunch and after some time I finished the rest of my requirements. Then I was practicing piano for some time. Later on I went to my tae kwon do class, I helped out in the junior class and attended the senior class after. I finally got a session in with my mentee. I came home and had dinner. Heading to sleep now.

Today after having my morning smoothie, I was cleaning my room and organizing it and moving stuff back into it. I listened to some true crime stories while doing so and it took like 2 and a half hours. Afterwards I had a bowl of leftover pasta for lunch and finished my requirements. I was planning on doing my run after my tae kwon do class. After, I chilled for a while and then fed my dog dinner. I go to junior class to help out and then attend the senior class right after so that’s what I did. There weren’t many people in class today. I went on my run after class and am very disappointed in myself because my time went up by a little more than a minute and I was just running slow throughout. I’m feeling pretty upset about that. I’m gonna wake up early tomorrow and finish my run and everything in the morning and hopefully get better time and run faster.

I woke up really late today and usually today is my rest day but I had to have it yesterday because I was busy the whole day so today I had to do stuff. Before eating I practiced a little piano which I haven’t done in a long time. Then I ate, and chilled before starting my requirements. After I rested a little before finishing everything up with my run near my neighborhood with my mom and dog. My mom took my dog with her but mostly she was walking fast and not running because she wanted to do 3 miles. I did 1.7 miles. After resting I took a nice long shower and my dad made some really good dinner so I ate that and am watching a movie with my mom. Pretty chill day. 

Today we went to go drop my sister off in college. She goes to NC state and we left in the morning so I had to miss my black belt class and the self defense seminar unfortunately. Usually Sunday is my rest day but today had to be it because we had only come back late night and I wouldn't be able to finish my requirements. I also didn’t get to do my run yesterday so I’ll have to make that up over time. We took around 3 hours to help my sister move in. She is going to her sophomore year. She always packs a lot too. After we went to target to get some cleaning supplies and tolietries for her as well which took some time. She had a dinner to go to with her friends in the evening so we dropped her off and had dinner at a ramen place nearby before leaving. Her friends birthday is tomorrow so they were planning on doing some sort of surprise party at midnight. Anyways the food was pretty good, it was pretty bland so I had to add a lot of chilli oil to it. We came back home around 11 and I still had to shower but I got a nice bodywash at the target so it was good. Going to head to sleep now.

Today was pretty tiring cause i had dance and my requirements.

Today I woke up later than I had planned. After I got ready, I went with my dad and my dog to his grooming appointment. It didn’t end so well because they said his fur was too matted. Anyways after I came back I sat for while and then got started on my requirements. I finished everything except the run. I had food and rested for a while before doing my run. I’ve lately been doing runs outside around my neighborhood and they are a lot more enjoyable. After I chilled for a while and played with my dog. I just had a shower and am going to have dinner.

I went to the gym early in the morning today to get my requirements finished off. I’ve been pushing myself on the treadmill but it’s getting a little scary now. After I ate breakfast, I finished another one of my essays. I ended up writing 4 pages instead of 1. I have trouble paraphrasing. Then I cleaned my room for the next couple of hours. Then I went to my tae kwon do class and had dinner.

Today I woke up pretty late and finished my requirements in the afternoon. I figured out a way to separate the exercises into different sets to make it easier. Still working on my pull ups but I can do dead hangs for longer now! After I started putting up my posters in my room. I got a lot as birthday presents over the years but never had the wall space until now since i’m redecorating. That took longer than I thought but I listened to a stories and podcasts. After I did the laundry and went to my taekwondo class. I had a session with my mentor after where we worked on my hurricane back kicks. Definitely need a lot of work on them. I’m getting better at my rolls though so that’s good. After I went to the gym to get my run in on the treadmill. I went really 

Today was my rest day! Last night me and my family watched the new jurassic world movie until late so I slept until late today. But my mom woke me up in a rush because I had to my room walls out because I was getting my room painted today. I’ve been wanting to redecorate my room for the past 3 years and my mom said we can do it this year since I’m about to go to high school. We went to Lowe’s to get paint and then I was chilling at home for a long time. I had to get ready around 5 though because we were going to a cafe to meet some family friends so I did that and I had a nice time at the cafe. I’m getting ready for the night and will probably watch a movie with my mom! I really needed this rest day so that’s good!

Today was the second day of the digital detox and it is definitely a lot worse. In the morning I had to meet with my school counselor with my mom to get my schedule finalized. After I went on a run at the school track since we were already there. My time is always faster on the track compared to treadmill. Then I came home and finished the rest of my requirements. I wanted to chill for a little but I didn’t really know what to do since I finished my book and couldn’t do much online. I also had limited time because I had to practice my dance because I had dance class in the evening. I did that for the next 2 hours and then had to wash my hair really quickly before going to my class because I had to go to a function right after. I am leaving for my function right now. I’m pretty tired and I have to wake up early for my black belt class tomorrow.

Today I started my first day of my digital detox. It’s been very quiet and calm today because of it. It isn’t that bad but I am definitely looking forward to it ending. After breakfast I read for a pretty long time and then finished all my requirements except for my run and then had lunch and read a little more until my mom and sister came back from work. After hanging with them for a bit. Me and my sister went to the gym where I completed my run and stretched for some time, waiting for my sister to complete her workout. I only used my phone when I needed to, like for my journal, duolingo, and a meeting for an organization I’m a part of. No electronics left me alone with my thoughts a lot which was peaceful but odd in a way. I just came home from the...

Today after I woke up, I went to the gym with my sister where I did most of my requirements except jump rope and pull ups. Afterwards, I came home and chilled for some time and then had lunch. Then I finished the rest of my requirements, (i have an at home pull up bar), then I went to a junior class to help out and then

Today was the pre test and it was a lot quicker and less intense than I expected. I thought you had to do everything you have learned for poomsae, self defense and kicks but each group only had to do 3 poomsae’s and the only self defense I did was bo cho self defense which was helpful though because I got better at my rolls. The master who watched me during my poomsae was a lot more specific and watchful so I got okay scores but it was fine because I learned a lot from his advice and his perspective was very interesting. After I came home I had food and watched TV for some time and watched a movie with my mom. Then I finished the remaining time for my requirements that I didn’t finish during the test. I was planning on going to the track this evening to get...

I made food in the morning with my mom and after eating, I did some of my requirements at home and my sister and I went to the gym after where I finished my run and the rest of my requirements in. After I had my birthday party. Last weekend was my birthday but I had this weekend since most of my friends were out of town. It was really fun and nice to see them after a long time, also since they are my school friends and most of us are going to different high schools. Unfortunately I didn’t realize the time I had and couldn’t complete my poomsae and self defense for today but I will just finish it on Sunday. I just came home and saw that the pre test run is cancelled which is a pretty fortunate since I came back home late and I can get more rest now! I’m a little nervous for the pre test but I believe in myself. Now i’m going to look through the instructors book for the written test 

Today was pretty chill. After a small breakfast, I was chilling for a while and then took my dog on a nice walk. After, I had lunch and said bye to my dad because he is going to NYC to visit his old friend. My mom and sister were at work so it was just me and my dog. But my sister came home a little while after my dad left. I watched some TV and afterwards did my requirements and waited for my mom to get home so we could go to the gym for me to do my run. This week, I’ve been running extra because I missed on day last week and I want to not have to run extra after my 1 mile at the pre test. My time has been improving a lot so that’s good. My fastest time for a mile has been like around 10:30 but that’s when I really pushed myself and went really fast. My average time is 12:30 ish. I’m a little nervous for the pre test but my instructors tell me it’s a lot easier than it sounds like. I’ve been studying for the written test with the instructors book my mentor gave me so that’s good.I just had dinner and am about to have a shower.

Today I woke up a little early to get my run in outside instead of on the treadmill. It was a lot harder than I thought it would be! I had to take lots of breaks when on the treadmill, I can go consistently without stopping. It’s probably because I’m not used to it and because of the incline. After I had breakfast, I finished my requirements and chilled for some time. Then I went to my taekwondo class to help out in the kids class and then take the senior class after it. I had a mentor session after where we worked on my rolls. I’m getting kind of better at them but I always get scared right before I do it. 

Today I was planning on waking up a little early, but